Poetic Moment: I Wonder

I Wonder

I wonder who I might have been if I had been myself
Would I have lived another life, this counterfeit then shelved?
I might have leaned toward the sun and warmed from different rays
I might have sprouted other roots and branched in different ways

I wonder what I might have lived, if born away from here
Distinct ecologies yield plants divergent from what’s near
Raised in foreign atmosphere, would I still become me?
Would I then be satisfied with what I’ve come to be?

I wonder what career I’d love, if I could hear a call
Is there something I could offer and not feel so small?
If others valued my good work, then would I know my worth?
Could I settle once for all the reason for my birth?

I wonder what I would do if I had more free time
Discovering new worlds within before I pass my prime
Savoring experiences offered by the world
Would satisfaction, peace, and joy before my feet unfurl?

I wonder what I should do now that so much time has passed
Should I start choosing other paths before I breathe my last?
How can I make the very most of time that I have left?
And relish those I love so much so life won’t be bereft

If wonder if my wondering, when all is said and done
Is just the thing I’m here to do, in that, my game is won
The world gives favor to “the sure” as if there’s just one way
Instead of worshipping “the answer”, I am here to say
I am a wonderer and I declare a different truth
It’s not the answer, but the question springs my fount of youth

This poem is an ode to those who find themselves often thinking "I don't know" and wonder how to feel more sure and confident. Yes, as leaders, we need clear vision, direction, and confidence. And, maybe also, if we look, we might find that delving more deeply into the questions raised in our journeys might become more telling than having all the easy answers that lie on the surface.

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